Articulations from the Extroverted Introvert

I thoroughly appreciate the blunt and honest truth. Please eloquently explain to me the things I need to improve on, and I will probably not like it at first but love it later. Constructive criticism is something everyone needs exposure to. I am not joking.

Here’s the thing - we are not able to do that. Instead, we either criticize continuously behind others backs or we make fun of people in order to get our points across, ruining all possible credibility with the person who may need to hear what is being said.

Why is it that way? Because people instantly become defensive and insulted, instead of trying to understand the content being expressed.

One day, I hope people will take things seriously yet lightly. Don’t jump to the worst of conclusions and give people the benefit of the doubt. Settle down. Suck it up. Listen up. Consider it. Act accordingly. Lines of communication would be significantly improved.

Please.

Simple. Absolutely one of the easiest things in the world. There are no lessons that need to be taught. In fact, second only to maybe crying (another struggle of mine), it is one of the first things done after being born. All I have to do is sleep. People can fall asleep in all kinds of places under ridiculous circumstances. It doesn’t matter. Outdoors, indoors, hot, cold, tired, bored, happy, sad, young, old, hungry, full, pillow, blanket, noise, silence, darkness, light, none of it matters. Some people are even capable of falling asleep in class or while driving, places one should never fall asleep.

My roommate can easily fall asleep while doing homework or talking on the phone. Today, she had the luxury of taking a nap after lunch (at the expense of one of her classes but whatever). She’s asleep now right now. Every once in a while she “wakes up” asking if she was asleep. Less than a minute later she is asleep once more.

So why not me? I want sleep. I am not sure when the last time was that I was able to fall asleep before 2 or 3. Sure, often I go to bed at a late time, but regardless I am unable to fall asleep. I just lay in bed, sometimes with oodles of thoughts running through my head, while other times nothing at all to occupy my mind. Around 8 or 9 each night I am almost exhausted and want nothing more than to lay my head on the pillow. This never happens though because 8 or 9 is when everything is just getting going, or I am worried I won’t wake up in time to finish my homework. If only I could store up that exhaustion. This very moment I am incredibly tired, but no matter. I’ll be up a minimum of an hour from now. But why?

I just can’t sleep.

The classic stand by the door picture has a whole different look today as I am about to embark on an adventure that takes me walking a few miles through the rain and finally allows for an hour-long lunch. Gotta love college.