Simple. Absolutely one of the easiest things in the world. There are no lessons that need to be taught. In fact, second only to maybe crying (another struggle of mine), it is one of the first things done after being born. All I have to do is sleep. People can fall asleep in all kinds of places under ridiculous circumstances. It doesn’t matter. Outdoors, indoors, hot, cold, tired, bored, happy, sad, young, old, hungry, full, pillow, blanket, noise, silence, darkness, light, none of it matters. Some people are even capable of falling asleep in class or while driving, places one should never fall asleep.
My roommate can easily fall asleep while doing homework or talking on the phone. Today, she had the luxury of taking a nap after lunch (at the expense of one of her classes but whatever). She’s asleep now right now. Every once in a while she “wakes up” asking if she was asleep. Less than a minute later she is asleep once more.
So why not me? I want sleep. I am not sure when the last time was that I was able to fall asleep before 2 or 3. Sure, often I go to bed at a late time, but regardless I am unable to fall asleep. I just lay in bed, sometimes with oodles of thoughts running through my head, while other times nothing at all to occupy my mind. Around 8 or 9 each night I am almost exhausted and want nothing more than to lay my head on the pillow. This never happens though because 8 or 9 is when everything is just getting going, or I am worried I won’t wake up in time to finish my homework. If only I could store up that exhaustion. This very moment I am incredibly tired, but no matter. I’ll be up a minimum of an hour from now. But why?
I just can’t sleep.
